Half Way Done

Well, I thought I would have been a lot better about writing in my blog but I guess not. A lot has happened in the past 5 months and I’ll try to summarize the big points here and then write some other posts focusing on key points and topics. I arrived on August 4th, 2016 in Frankfurt, Germany after a 7 1/2 hour flight from Newark, New Jersey. Since I cannot sleep on planes, I was completely exhausted but then had a 5 hour train ride to Stade, Germany. When I arrived at the Stade train station I was greeted by my entire host family. They were very welcoming and smiling, sadly I was too tired to convey all the excitement and gratefulness I felt. I was so shocked by all the beautiful scenery and everything was so surreal. We then went home, had dinner, talked for awhile, and then I showered and went to bed. And that was that.

I stayed with that host family until November 4th, 2015; exactly 3 months. My host mom taught me a lot and I learned what it was like to be a part of a big family. The family was really into physical activity and they encouraged me to take part in swimming and running training. I also started to take hip hop class and it’s something I continue to do. In September we went to Berlin and it was incredible. To see all the monuments and landmarks that I had only seen in pictures before was incredible and I will never forget that trip. In October during our “Herbstfeiern” (fall break) I went with my host mom, my host sister, and one of my host brothers down to Stuttgart because he had a swim competition. We didn’t get to see a whole lot but it was a nice change of scenery to be in Southern Germany. Unfortunately, things didn’t quite work out with that family and I had to move into a new one. So did my host brother from France. I ended up moving in with one of my friends, Amina. She is an exchange student from Italy and my best friend here in Germany. Since November 4th I have been living with her and I have an incredible host mom and dad, and 4 other host siblings but they are not always by us.

With my new host family I have been able to see many different surrounding towns and parts of Hamburg, and learn all the history behind them. We took a weekend trip To Holzminden in December and it was beautiful. I have also really enjoyed going to church on Sundays; it is definitely something I miss. We don’t go every Sunday and when we go I don’t understand everything, but it is still nice to spend some quality time worshipping around other believers. In mid-December I was blessed with another host sister from Switzerland, Lorna. She came to live with us for the last 2 weeks of her exchange and it was so much fun to live with two other exchange students and we are all truly sisters. Lorna flew back home on December 22nd and it is really weird to not see her and talk to her every day. It just makes me think about how strange it will be to go back to all my friends and family after 10 months away from home.

I’ve been in school since the 29th of August because during my first three weeks in Germany I had language camp in Hamburg. Language camp was one of the best experiences of my exchange year so far and I have made 15 friends that I know I will always talk with. It was Monday-Friday from 9:45-4 but every day went by super fast. We took a few walks around the city, played games, and learned about the culture and the language. When it ended, I was devastated to have to leave them because not everybody stayed in the Hamburg area. #Ham16 However, 5 of them have the same representative as me so we see each other every month. I also traveled to visit one of them, I went to the opera with one, and sometimes we meet in Hamburg or other cities to spend the day together.

School is insanely different in Germany compared to in America. I will write a different post explaining everything about school but here I will just give a few details. Every day I have 6 or 8 hours of school but that only means 3 or 4 subjects. Each subject is 1 hour and 30 minutes long and then between lessons we have a 15-20 minute break with 30 minutes for a lunch break. I was placed in the 10th grade, even though in America I would be in the 11th and I am in our school’s Latin class. I stay with that same group of students for every lesson and we are only about 24 people. I am also very close friends with the other exchange students at our school. At the school there was me, Amina from Italy, Lorna from Switzerland, my host brother from France, 2 from Mexico, one from Brazil, one from Columbia, and one from Bolivia. Lorna and the student from Bolivia have both gone home but a few weeks ago a boy from Chile came. It is so interesting to have friends from all over the world, hear about their cultures, and also to hear all the different languages. It just makes me want to travel the world and learn more and more languages.

My first half of this exchange year has certainly had its ups and downs but never for a second have I regretted applying for CBYX. I am so eternally blessed and grateful for this opportunity and it is something that has changed my whole life forever. I have become so much more self-confident, open-minded, curious, and determined. It was also helped me see the potential that I have and what I can do with my future. I’m looking forward to the next 5 months and hopefully I will be better and writing during them.

Pre-Departure Orientation 

I’m officially in Germany and have been for 2 weeks now. Sorry I haven’t written since I left home, things have just been a little crazy. I left home on August 1st at 4am to catch my flight to Washington DC at 5:47am. Saying goodbye to my family was incredibly hard, I’ve said a lot of goodbyes but that was definitely the hardest. My friend Azana had spent that night at my house and helped me finish packing. That night I was really excited but it still didn’t feel completely real that I was leaving for a year. I also Skyped my host brother from France that night and he got to Germany the day before I did. That mornig was filled with tears and I didn’t stop crying until I landed in Denver and had to catch my flight to DC. 

When we first got to DC I met a lot of the other CBYX ASSE students and everybody was so nice. That was when it really started to get exciting and all my sadness melted away. Everybody was exhausted from a full day of traveling but you could sense everybody’s nerves. That night I spent with the roommates talking and getting to know each other. After dinner we had a conference with the people in charge of us for those 2 days in DC and went over culture shock, what to expect, and playing ice breakers. It was pretty boring and I think everybody just wanted to shower and go to bed.

The next day was insanely busy. On August 2nd we took the metro into DC and split off into groups which were determined by state. I had three congressional meetings that day with people representing my state and region. It was really interesting getting to see the actual offices that the government officials work in and seeing a little bit of the “behind-the-scenes” DC. It was incredibly hot and humid that day so everybody was a little miserable. We had to walk everywhere and that day I walked over 8 miles. I was pretty much done by noon but still had a lot to do.We were each given $10 for lunch and could spend it anywhere we wanted, we just had to be at the capital building by a certain time. It was weird for me to be given so much freedom because usually school trips are very restricted and you don’t have the opportunity to explore by yourself. After lunch we took a tour of the capital but we didn’t get to see much because they were doing construction. The best part of our tour was the tour guide. He was hilarious and from Scotland; he just made the whole thing a thousand times better. 


After the capital tour we walked to the national mall where we were given about 2 hours of free time. I went to the flight and space Smithsonian with some friends. I think it would’ve been a lot more enjoyable if I hadn’t been so exhausted, but I was so tired that everything was really boring. So after about 30 minutes of looking around, we went to McDonalds and got ice cream. After that we all went back to Maryland for dinner and then another meeting. The meeting was pretty boring and everybody had a hard time focusing because we were all exhausted. We went over what we did that day, what tomorrow was going to look like, and learned more about culture shock.


August 3rd was our last day in America for quite a while and it was so surreal. It would just hit me at certain times that I was going to be living in Germany, and not just for a couple weeks but for a year! But before we drove to Newark for our flight to Frankfurt we had a meeting with the State Department. We discussed current events and how they might affect us while we are in Germany. There are a lot of things going on in the world right now including the presidential election and the refugee crisis and they will definitely impact our year. 

When we got to the airport it started to hit me again that I was actually leaving. I was hearing a lot of people speaking German and all the messages the flight attendants gave were in German. It was an incredible feeling but I wasn’t the least bit nervous. That flight was filled with emotions though because I was excited but insanely tired. I didn’t sleep at all on the 7 hour flight so it did pass slowly but I talked with our escort who was sitting next to me. We had a nice, long chat about life in general and he gave me lots of helpful advice about college and this up coming year.

Then that next day, August 4th and around 10:00am we landed in Frankfurt. That was when the adventure really began, and now I’m living that life and it’s nothing like I thought it would be; it’s better. 

All Ready To Go

Hours Before Departure

Only a few more hours until I leave for Washington DC to meet all the other ASSE-CBYX exchange students. It still doesn’t feel entirely real that I’m going for a year, just feels like I’m going on a vacation. It will really hit me tomorrow morning when I get up at 3am to finish packing the last minute things.

This past week I did a lot of shopping and got all the last minute things that I needed, visited some friends and family, and packed my suitcase. It was so nice to spend a lot of time with everybody especially since I spent most of my summer doing school. I finished all my summer classes Thursday which gave me 4 days to get ready for Germany. Friends and family also stopped by today to say goodbye. My grandparents stopped by today and it was so nice to spend some time with them before I left. I will miss everybody so much, but I will be back before I know it!

One of my friends is spending the night tonight and has been helping me back. I’m so glad that we are able to spend so much time together before I head out. She, along with a mom and a couple of my other friends, are going to see me off at the airport. I know tomorrow will be really sad for everyone but I’m really excited. This adventure will do be worth of the tears and struggles that I will face. I’m going to cry a lot tomorrow but I just have to remember how amazing this opportunity is and how much fun I will have. I get to Germany August 4th and I can’t wait to meet me host family! I’m going to Skype my host brother Grégoire from France tonight and he gets to Stade the day before I do. We have already talked so much  and I can’t wait to finally meet him!! I know we will have a lot of fun next year and I can’t wait to get to know all my other host siblings.

Since I am traveling tomorrow I just would really appreciate it if everybody would send some prayers my way and think about me. I sometimes get nervous when flying and I just want me and all the other exchange students to get to our host families safely! So please keep us in your prayers! Thank you 🙂

Departure Preparations Have Officially Started

14 Days Until Departure

Isn’t it crazy how time flies by? I feel like just yesterday I had forty days until departure, but now I’m down to only 2 weeks. It really has been going by really fast and I still have so much to do. My school work is really weighing me down, every day I’ve been trying to work all day but I really need to work harder. The only thing that is helping me get through it is knowing that once I’m done all I have to worry about is friends and making sure everything is ready to go. I’m hoping to be done with school in one week so that way I have the other week to finish everything else.

I finished up almost all of my shopping yesterday. I got some clothes, the rest of my host family gifts, a new purse, and most importantly, a suitcase. I also started packing. I am probably going to pack a few times to make sure I don’t go over 50 pounds and that everything fits. If not, I’m going to have to decide what I really need to bring and what can stay home. But I think I should be fine because I’m putting all the heavy stuff into my carryon and backpack. This includes all books, really thick sweatpants, and anything else that’s heavy that isn’t a liquid. I’m also putting in some clothes incase my suitcase gets delayed.

I also had my pre-departure orientation on the 15th. It wasn’t anything interesting and was pretty much all common sense. We just went over the rules and homesickness and all that stuff. All of it I already knew but it did make it seem like I was really leaving. There are certain moments when I truly feel like I am going to Germany but most of the time it doesn’t feel real. I think it’s because I don’t really know what to expect. The program can tell you as much as they want to about what you should expect, but they don’t know what your experiences and reactions will be like. I have no idea going into this what it’ll be like expect for the basics like that I’m going to Germany and that I’ll have language camp. But I don’t know all the fun, little details that I can’t wait to discover! Everything will be so new and exciting and I know there will be times when I want to come home and visit everyone, but it’ll be worth it. At church today during worship they played one song which said, ” There might be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning.” I have always loved this but today it really hit me for some reason, and I think it was God telling me that I will have rough nights but to just remember this. For He will get me through anything.

Time to Go Home (For 4 Weeks)

28 Days Until Departure 

Finally heading home tomorrow after 3 weeks on the road, and I can’t wait to finally sleep in my own bed and to no longer live out of a suitcase. I had an amazing time both in Colorado and at the Shakespeare Festival. The plays were incredible this year and I’m so glad I got the opportunity to see them. I did get a lot of school work done, not as much as I would have liked, but still quite a bit. When I get home my grandma will be staying with us for over a week, but sadly most of that time will be school for me.

I only have a startling 28 days till departure!!! It’s so insane but at the same time it doesn’t feel real. I have so much I still I need to do but at the same time I don’t. I have gotten some gifts for my host family and have started finding recipes I want to bring with me. I also have been talking quite a bit with my host  family and have found out some exciting news. During my first few weeks I will be having language camp in Hamburg. Now I already knew this, but I thought I would be living with a different family during that time. But I will actually be living with my permanent host family during this time and every morning taking the 1 hour commute there, and every night 1 hour commute back. I’m really glad that I won’t miss out on a whole month with this family!

I also found out that in September we will be going to Berlin! Now for those of you who don’t know my birthday is in September, and it just so happens we will be in Berlin for my 17th birthday!! I’m really excited and my host mom said we are definitely going to party and celebrate. Every little detail I found out, just excites me even more and makes me anxious to start the adventure! Hopefully throughout these next few weeks I can finish all my school, make sure I have everything I need, and get to spend a lot of time with friends and family!

Stress and Excitement 

43 Days until Departure

With almost 6 weeks until departure, I’m getting really excited but I’m also really stressed. In order to graduate with the class of 2018 like I’m supposed to, I’m having to take summer school classes. This summer I’m taking American literature and US history. They are killing me! There is so much work to do and I honestly don’t know if I can finish in time. But I will try my hardest to finish and I hope I can. It’s really hard because I’m on vacation and am only about 4 days into my 3 week vacation.

I’m currently in Pagosa Springs, Colorado and am really enjoying every moment. We took three days to drive here and stopped in Twin Falls, Idaho one night and Moab, Utah the next. We went to the Arches National Park in Moab and it was beautiful! Today we walked around town and did some shopping. During this trip we plan to raft down a canyon, take a train ride into the mountains, and go see some Aztec Ruins. It should be a really good week. Then my grandma and I are driving to Cedar City, Utah for the Utah Shakespeare Festival. I went last year and it was an incredible time and I can’t wait to see all the plays this year! 


When I get back home I will only have 4 weeks until I leave. It doesn’t even feel real and when I think about it, it’s intimidating! I’m super excited and I can’t wait but it’s so soon! I can’t even imagine what my life will be like in a month, but I know it’ll be great. 

Last Day: Full of Goodbyes

52 Days Until Departure

I still have 4 hours left of my sophomore year, but really, it’s over. We aren’t doing anything, and we are all saying our goodbyes. Now, if I wasn’t going anywhere next year, I wouldn’t feel an once of sadness. This year was extremely stressful and I was sleep-deprived every single day. But I am leaving, and I’m glad to leave some people, but others I don’t want to leave. Driving to school today with my friend, I started crying. It’s the last time I will be driving myself to school for quite awhile and yesterday was the last time I will get to go on a taco run with my friends here for a year!

Don’t get me wrong, I’m really happy to go on this new adventure and to make new friends; but I don’t want to leave the amazing friends I have here and the incredible teachers I had this year. I guess school isn’t over for me because I start summer school Monday, but it won’t be anything like a real school year.

I started packing last weekend and have everything for the winter all packed since I won’t be needing it this summer. I also have been talking a lot with my host brother from France, Gregoire. I’m really looking forward to getting to meet him. I also can’t wait to meet everyone else in my host family! They all seem so nice and I know we are going to have a lot of fun!

I leave for vacation late next week and when I come back I will only have 28 days till I leave! That’s insane! It’ll go by insanely fast and I want it to, but I don’t at the same time. I want to treasure every moment but I also want to be in Germany already! I know that God has exciting things in store for me, and I just want to know what they are! Waiting to see if I was accepted into CBYX required a lot of patience, and this does too. But it still doesn’t feel completely real that I’m leaving, I just know that August 1st, departure day, I will be a wreck.

On This Day 6 Years Ago…

66 Days Till Departure

On this day 6 years ago, I went to Europe for the first time. Little did I know that I would be living there in the future. The idea of being an exchange student didn’t even occur to me until a year ago. But, I’m so glad that God has lead me down this path.

When I went to Europe in 2010 I visited Amsterdam, Heidelberg, Zurich, and Bern. It was one of the best trips in my life, and was one of the reasons I wanted to be an exchange student in Germany. I have no idea what next year will be like, but I know that I am ready for whatever adventures come my way. Earlier this week, the fact that I was leaving started to hit me. When my friends say to me, “Who am I going to do this with next year?” or, “We need to do this before you leave!” it makes me sad. I know I’m going to have an incredible time next year, but it’s a bittersweet feeling.

I’ve been working on my German quite a bit and I’m starting to surprise myself with my German skills. When my host mom emails me, I can understand almost everything! When I listen to people talk in German; I know what they are saying! I’m extremely proud of myself and I know I will only get better. I’m hoping to finish all of Duolingo’s German lessons before I go (I have about 30 left), but I’m not sure I can do it. I did the math and I only have 5 days this summer where I have nothing planned. The two days after I finish school, and the three days before I leave. That leaves me almost no time to say goodbye to friends and get everything done that I need to. Even though I’m super busy, my friends have been super supportive and are helping me out a lot. One of my friends is helping me plan my goodbye party and I’m so blessed to have her in my life. I wouldn’t be the person I am without all my friends so thank you!

I am nervous for next year and of course I have a million questions about it. Will I make friends easily? Am I actually as good at German as I think I am? What is school like? How am I going to celebrate my birthday? I know that this things seem trivial, but I can’t help thinking them. I guess I’ll just have to wait and see what God has in store for me!

Things I’m Going to Miss

  • My family
  • My friends
  • My youth group/church
  • Being a part of my school’s buddy club
  • My dog
  • My swimming pool
  • Driving

(I’m sure there is more but that’s all I can think of right now) J

Things I’m Looking Forward To

  • Meeting my host family
  • Making new friends
  • Becoming fluent in German
  • Being immersed in a different culture
  • Incredible architecture
  • Living in a beautiful German town
  • Traveling
  • Amazing food

And much more… J

Host Family Placement

78 Days Till Departure

Earlier this week I received an email saying that I had been placed in a host family. The email said that I had been placed in a family with another exchange student, a boy from France who is 6 months older than me. I was so excited that I completely skipped over the attachments. I was so excited just to have finally been placed after two months of waiting. But then I calmed down a little bit and actually read the attachments. They told me all the information about the host family that chose me and the other exchange student.

My host family consists of a single mom, two of her sons who are 15 and 12, and a foster child who is 4. She has another son who is 18 who lives with his dad and a daughter who is 16 who will be spending next year here in America! I will get her daughter’s room and I am super excited. They live about an hour away from Hamburg and close to Denmark and the North Sea. The town is beautiful! The family’s hobbies are quite different from mine; they are very active and like water sports, bicycling, and triathlons and I like playing board games, cooking, and sight seeing. However, I still like to ride bikes and be active and I know it will be very good for me to live in a family that is always moving. I want to lose some weight anyways and start eating healthier so I know they will really be able to help me.

I emailed my host mom that day with a few sentences in German but mostly in English. Basically I told her thank you for welcoming me into her family and I can’t wait to get to know the whole family. I also asked for the French boy’s email so I could get to know him.  Because of the huge time difference I wasn’t expecting an email till the next day; and sure enough at 2 o’clock in the morning my time, she emailed me back. It was all in German! She wrote a long letter completely in German and gave me quite a bit of information. She explained what my room would look like, a little about the family, what they like to do, and how close things are to their house. She also sent me some pictures of her family and they all look so nice. She said that she is really excited to immerse me in the culture and language and that she hopes I come in with an open-mind and am willing to try many new things. Of course, that made me really excited! I have a feeling she will try to give me a really great view of traditional German culture and that we will see some great places throughout Germany (and hopefully some other countries too).

I wrote back the next day during my German class and I tried to write as much as I could in German. (My German teacher said that for the next 17 days of school that my assignment in class would just be to email my host mom in German.) I’m just very thankful that I have been taking German very seriously, otherwise I wouldn’t have been able to understand her email. I asked her a few questions and told her that her family and house sound wonderful. I also told her a little more about myself and the area in which I live. Hopefully, in the near future I will be able to Skype with her and the family and get to know them even more. Living with them will be very different from my family. Right now I only have one sibling, a little brother; and soon I will be living with a bunch of brothers and a little sister. I know it’ll be great and I just can’t wait to meet them in person.

82 Days Until Departure

Quite a bit of information has been given to me in regards to the exchange program. I got the departure dates in the mail earlier last week. I was super excited to find out that I will be leaving August 1st for Washington DC and arriving August 4th in Frankfurt. It’s starting to feel real! I still have quite a bit for time until I leave or even start packing, but I actually have a grasp on what my summer looks like. I have some idea of what we are doing in DC but the exchange program said we would get an itinerary in the next few weeks. I’m super excited to find out what we will be doing.

I’m also really happy because I will probably be flying to DC with my friend Brittany who is also going on this exchange. We have never met in person but we talk a lot on the phone and have gotten to know each other a bit. I can’t wait to finally meet her and I know we will be spending a lot of time with each other in DC and in language camp.

I also had a conference call for the exchange program that went over the rules. It was all pretty much common sense and was pretty uneventful. There is another one sometime early June that will be going over exact details. That is the one I am really looking forward to! I just love to know what I should expect and that is impossible in my situation. However, I’m more patient than I usually would be. Every time I freak out about not knowing my host family or where I might get to go on vacation, I just remember that God is in control and everything will work out just fine. There is really no need to worry, I just need to wait and see what God has in store for me.